Sadly Zoe passed over the Rainbow Bridge this morning much to my & my emergency vet's surprise.Dr. Adamcak did everything possible to save Zoe & we thought Zoe would make it through the night as she had perked up last night and even ate some of her BML. However, the pulmony edema was apparently too much for Zoe to overcome. I have convinced Dr. Adamcak to do a necropsy free of charge as she has never necropsied a glider before and what she learns of their anatomy should prove useful to her in the future. She will share the necropsy results with me & I will let people know the results once I have them. I have given Dr. Adamcak a little casket and blankie to wrap Zoe in for when I pick up her remains so I can bury her next to my beloved other gliders.
Dr. Adamcak & I suspect that the current dental abscess infection became systemic and affected her heart and lungs. This saddens me as I have just learned that antibiotic treatment for dental abscessing needs to be done for a minimum of 21-30 days to ensure proper clearing up of the abscess/infection. However, my regular vet only recommended a course of antibiotic treatment for 14 days on both of the prior occasions when the dental abscessing occurred. I know my regular vet is only human but a part of me feels he failed Zoe by not knowing that the antibiotic treatment course should have been given for 21-30 days. If the antibiotic treatment had been given for the usual recommended period, Zoe most likely would not have experienced a third bout of dental abscessing which took her life this time.
I am sitting here shaking my head and crying for this poor little girl who had just begun to trust me after almost 15 months and wondering what kind of trust/bond we might have ultimately developed. There is also a sense of guilt knowing that I was not there to hold Zoe at the end when she took her last breaths as I did not want her to be alone, confused and afraid should she not make it. But both the vet & I were pleased that she had perked up and her vital signs were stable last night when I left. I know in my heart that Zoe forgives me for not being there to comfort her & let her know just how much I loved her but it doesn't make me feel any better right now. Perhaps in time, the pain and guilt of not being with Zoe at the end will lessen but for now I feel I somehow betrayed the trust she was beginning to show me.
As a tribute to little Zoe, I have changed my avatar to the one where she winked at me when I was filming her a year ago during the Halloween season. The full movie clip can be seen HERE . The wink comes towards the end of the movie clip.
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#27923 10/23/0402:46 PM10/23/0402:46 PM
Oh no! Im so sorry Roo. My thought are with you and remeber my little yellabell will be there over the rainbow bridge to be a new friend for your little Zoe. My prayers are with you!
~Jill
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#27924 10/23/0402:49 PM10/23/0402:49 PM
Glideroo, I am so sorry. After meeting you I know what a loving and dedicated glider mommie you are. You should not feel bad at all, I know you did all you could do. Sometimes no matter the best care, the most love, they have to go. Please know we are all here for you if you need to talk. Maybe some good will come out of this. More information on glider health and use of antibiotics for dental infections. I do know that in humans with cardiac conditions, dental health is very important as infections can spread to the heart and ultimately cause more damage.
Turn all of your dissapointment and sadness into attention to your other gliders today, they will help you through this sad time. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" />
Alicia aka Queenduck, Bentley's Nana
We need role models who are going to break the mold ~ Carly Simon
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#27925 10/23/0402:53 PM10/23/0402:53 PM
I am so so sorry. I had really prayed she would make it. I know this won't help, but I think when anyone looses a loved one and they aren't there to say goodbye it makes it harder. Perhaps when she perked up while you were there that was her way of saying how much she loved you. My prayers will be with you with the hope that you heal soon.
This just breaks my heart and I am sorry.
Love and kindness is a gift. Use it freely.... My Gallery
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#27926 10/23/0403:04 PM10/23/0403:04 PM
Zoe is now free of pain and suffering. As for the pain of her having left you....Zoe would not want you to feel any guilt. You did your best for Zoe while she was with you.
As time goes by...your pain will lessen. Rest assured that Zoe is with those who have gone on to the Rainbow Bridge and is now frolicing under the soft glimmer of lights of the moon and stars.
I am so sorry Roo. After meeting you, there is no doubt in my mind Zoe knew you loved her and did everything you could to help her. May time heal your heart, and may the memories be vivid <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" />.
Karin
Miss Lily and Bud Prada and Armani Tessa, Deuce and Cami
Well honey, I've never lost a glider, but I've lost many other loved creatures. All I can offer you is that though you feel you've failed her, she's no longer in pain, she's happy and free and positively keeps you in the warmest part of her heart. So sorry for your loss. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/gliderangel.gif" alt="" />
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#27929 10/23/0406:08 PM10/23/0406:08 PM
Lois, I am so very very sorry for your loss. I pray that when you look back on that video of her, it makes you smile as it has made me. What a cherised memory to know that after a rough time in the beginning this little rescue found what love was all about.
May you find peace and comfort in knowing, she loved you too. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" />
Zoe had a hard life and then she was so fortunate to meet you. Lois, you are the one that gave Zoe the love she never had, and the life she so very much deserved. Zoe looks down on you today with immeasurable affection, for you are the one that enabled her to feel love. I hope and pray your pain will heal quickly, as Zoe would want it. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/gliderangel.gif" alt="" />
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#27932 10/23/0409:17 PM10/23/0409:17 PM
Glideroo, I'm so sorry I really hoped that the outcome would be better. My thoughts and prayers are with you tonight and for many more to come <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
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#27933 10/23/0409:44 PM10/23/0409:44 PM
<img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> I have now cried over 3 gliders today! <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/upset.gif" alt="" /> My William I was remembering-Hope's (BMXgirl's) Mya, who I watched the tribute for and was thinking about. And yours. It is so painful to lose them. I'm so sorry about Zoe-but she'll be waiting for you at the bridge one day when you get there. I really hoped she'd pull through, and you did everything you knew to do, and she KNEW that! Sending <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" />
Jen/Colin Commander Riker 12 16 02-10 04 12 you will be FOREVER missed Sinbad, Gabby, Baby, and Alley
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#27934 10/24/0412:31 AM10/24/0412:31 AM
<img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> I am so sorry for your loss. Reading about Zoe and her struggles pulled at my heart strings like few have. You showed her love and gentleness that she had never known and probably would never have known if you hadn't been sent to her. That is such a gift for any creature. I hope time will quickly remove your pain and leave behind only good memories. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" />
620-704-9109 Judge not until you have walked in their shoes and lived their lives. What you see online is only part of the story.
I could have missed the pain But I'd of had to miss the dance
The soul would have no rainbow if the eyes had no tears.
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#27935 10/24/0401:20 AM10/24/0401:20 AM
I thank all of you for your support at this trying time. It was difficult feeding the gliders tonight knowing there is one less plate to prepare. I've spent the day working on a Memorial Page for Zoe and will be posting it shortly in rememberance of this sweet little girl.
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#27936 10/24/0403:43 AM10/24/0403:43 AM
[:"magenta"] <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> roo, i am so sorry to hear about zoe. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/gliderangel.gif" alt="" /> when i saw the avatar, i got all choked up. i remember it from when you used it before, and she was such a gorgeous little girl.
i know you blame yourself, but please try to remember the good times. i have heard that many animals (even the most loved ones) wait until nobody else is present to go to the bridge. you will have plenty of time to spend with her/earn her trust when you see her again.
again, i am so sorry for your loss. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" />[/]
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#27937 10/24/0402:33 PM10/24/0402:33 PM
Oh my... <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" /> Oh my gosh...I am so so sorry. Im just in tears. I dont even know what to say. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />
Im so so sorry about little Zoe. Please dont feel guilty (I know easier said than done sometimes), Zoe knew she was loved and knew she had a WONDERFUL home with you. She was family. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
I will always and have forever remembered the video of Zoe in her Ghost door hanger, sweet little face peeping out. You talking to her, and her 'griping' (crabbing)... and 'the wink'... thats just absolutely priceless!
She was a doll baby and she knew it. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" /> Zoe 100% KNEW you loved her so much. I am so so sorry my friend. I know your heart must ache. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" /> I wish I could do something to make it better for you. Please know that your in my thoughts and prayers and If I can do anything, please let me know. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" />
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#27938 10/24/0407:27 PM10/24/0407:27 PM
She will be greeted at the Rainbow Bridge By the Arrival A-Team who will take good care of her and get her oriented. Once there, she'll have everything she could possilbly want while waiting to reunite with you. Believe me, it's a wonderful place!
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#27939 10/24/0411:31 PM10/24/0411:31 PM
Oh dear, I'm so so sorry for your loss! You did everything you could for Zoe and I know she would not want you to feel guilty! In time, you will be able to look back on all the happy times and smile. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" />
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#27940 10/25/0401:19 PM10/25/0401:19 PM
So Sorry for your loss. Zoe will meet my little Mia and Opey at Rainbow Bridge; it's so sad to lose one of our babies...just breaks our heart.
I tried to watch the video, but was unable to get it to play. It's just as well, I know it would make me cry even harder than I am already. Hugs to you and hope your heart heals real soon. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
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#27941 10/25/0404:59 PM10/25/0404:59 PM
I'm so sorry for your loss. I remember when you first posted that video of Zoe. I must have watched it 5 times then. I even showed it to my husband and son. Her fiestiness made us all smile. I know she will be missed dearly. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" />
<img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> I am so sorry! <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" /> I know Zoe knew you loved her sooooo much. I am sure she was greated by all our sweet babies at the bridge and they are playing, cuddling and waiting for us to join them someday. Angie
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#27943 10/25/0407:39 PM10/25/0407:39 PM
I am so sorry for your loss. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" />
Danielle owned by 4 dogs and 2 gliders really soon Formerly known as K & D Exotics
A Tribute To Zoe#27987 10/24/0401:26 AM10/24/0401:26 AM
Dear Zoe: I've spent the day working on a page in rememberance of you. I thank you for the time I was allowed with you and will keep you in my heart until we meet again:
That was beautiful! I rewrote a song for my William, but most of it was not original, just fit my memories. Its down the page in this forum a bit. Truly my heart goes out to you and I know the pain. May time heal! <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
Jen/Colin Commander Riker 12 16 02-10 04 12 you will be FOREVER missed Sinbad, Gabby, Baby, and Alley
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#27989 10/24/0401:58 AM10/24/0401:58 AM
Thank you so much Annie's dad. The communique was wonderful. I have copied it & plan to put it on Zoe's Memorial Page with recognition to you as the writer of the communique. I have two important posts to make today with a heavy heart. One involves the results of Zoe's necropsy and the other involves the loss of my cherished ferret, Kali. I pray there are no more losses for a long time to come. Two in less than a week has been almost unbearable.
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#27993 10/27/0407:30 AM10/27/0407:30 AM
Bless your heart Roo...so sorry to hear about Kali too.
Your tribute to Zoe is just breathtakingly beautiful; I still have tears streaming down my face. What precious memories you have in your heart.
And Annie's Dad's story is just so comforting. To think that she is joined by her friends that have gone on before her and the warm welcome she received at Rainbow Bridge. Somehow makes the loss more bearable to know that her life continues...just a little out of earth's reach.
Hugs to you <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/hug2.gif" alt="" />
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