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Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this

Posted By: AussiePoss

Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/21/03 11:03 PM

POss was diagnosed with tumors yesterday. he has one under his arm (large) and then others throughout his body. he can hardly breath and he will be put down by my vet today. nothing could hurt me anymore than any of this and i had hoped that i would just one day find him passed in his sleep but to have to end his life myself, it is going to kill me. i am so lost already and cant see how to go on without him. it has to be done i know but it hurts so much. i feel so guilty about killing him (as tahts what it feels) and i think it will take a long time not only to get over his death, but it will take longer for me to heal and forgive myself for making him take a last breath and never seeing me or the world again. i just cant stand it, i know its for the best but it hurts so much to know im ending his life. i dont know how to get up everyday withought him. and i cant mentally determine he is here now alive but will be dead in a few hours. im so hurt and i dont know how to get through this, its not his passing that hurts, its that im going to kill him today and i just cant love myself for doing it. thank you all for being so supportive throughout posses life, i know you will all understand that i cannot come back here, maybe ever, maybe sometime when it doesnt hurt as much. no one will ever understand how much he meant to me and how i feel right now, i feel like i am losing a part of who i am. i will ask a huge favor and that is that if anyone has anytime to find old posts (happy ones) of him especially the ones we did with all the funny stories with all the other glider central members with there gliders traveling to see poss, i would appriciate anyoe who finds them emailing them to me at []possinmybed@hotmail.com[/] its to painful for me to look right now. im sorry to leave you all, i just cant deal with anyof this right now. im shattered in a million places. thank you ellen for the phone call yesterday, you helped make my decission easier.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/21/03 11:25 PM

I just wanted to say I am so very sorry that you have to go through this. Poss is in my thoughts and prayers, as you are too. I can't even imagine what you must be going through. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: BeetleJuice

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/21/03 11:28 PM

Amber,

I'm so sorry. I just don't have the words to adequately express my sorrow. I hope that your heart will heel soon and you will be able to stop back by in time. Just know that you are doing what is best and Poss will be waiting and wacthing out for you to the end of your days. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/21/03 11:29 PM

It breaks my heart to read your post. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" /> Having had to put down several pets, I know what you are going through and how much it hurts. You have to know that Poss would suffer if left to live - one of the most humane, loving things we can do for the helpless is intervene when mercy is the kindest alternative. Poss knows you love him and we all know Poss loves you - he always will - whether he is at your side or waiting for you at the Bridge. I'm so terribly, terribly sorry. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/21/03 11:46 PM

Amber...I am so sorry that you and Poss are suffering so. Speaking from experience with my two girls, the guilt WILL fade, but it will take time. I blamed myself for killing them and failing them somehow, but I now know that I gave them the most precious gift I could...the gift of everlasting life in a better place where there is no more pain, no more trouble breathing or moving.

My heart breaks for you. Please allow us to share your grief as well as the memories. It helps so much to have others who have been through similar situations and can relate. Let us be there for you like you have been so for many of us.

My thoughts and prayers are with you! <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 12:03 AM

Oh no, i don't know what to say.... This is very hard.
I only had to put down one animals so far, and it wasn't easy, but he was suffering, and would have died in a short time periode afterwards, but i just couldn't stand seeing him suffer.

Really you aren't ending his life, would you put him down if he wasn't suffering ? I doubt it.
So really it's the disease that's ending his life, by forcing your decision to end his life so he won't suffer no more. Just think of this, in the wild he would have allready been dead, cause he would have been easy prey, and his suffering would have been ended from the time he had trouble getting around as fast as normal.

I hope you come back to read some of our posts, and even if you leave, that you may heal to where you can enjoy the love and support on this board again.

Takce care,
Tanja
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 03:55 AM

Amber...this is so sad for you and Poss. As others do, I understand what you are going through. Having to put down my beloved Maggie was so hard I didn't think I would make it through it. That has been many years ago and it still hurts. But I remember the cute tricks she did and how she would meet me at the door when I got home and I smile. Hopefully one day you can do the same and in the mean time know that we are all here for you. I hope you will pay us a visit soon.
God Bless You and Poss

Steph
Posted By: Ellen

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 04:56 AM

I would like to ask the Mod's and members to send all that Amber asked for. The pictures and stories. I know she would love to them and she shared them with us. Now it is time for Glider CENRTAL to pay her back for sharing all the info she gave and the funny stories and all that goes with Poss and her.

I will especially miss Poss and talking to him. SHe would say "say hello to Auntie Ellen" and he would chirp and talk to me.

This is a very unreal time for me and after talking with Amber I know it was all she could do to post this. BUT she wanted to do this for Poss.

So can we all help out?

I love you Amber and love Poss. He will live on. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 05:21 AM

<img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> Amber, I recently went thru something very similiar, and I know how hard it is. You are NOT killing him, you are releasing him from his pain and suffering, as hard as it is to do. You brought up his travel stories when he was at least thru all of us visiting us and having a great vacation! I started crying at that one. I know all too well what you are going thru. You will be in my prayers for healing and for grace, and peace. You know that this is what is best for him and that is why it is so hard, it's one of the MOST UNSELFISH things you can do for him. He knows you love and he loves you and he will always be in your heart. He will always be a member of GC as will you. Remember the good times, hold them close, you have so many pictures, that will always be dear, keep him in your heart, he will always be there. We love you and poss.
Chey
Posted By: glider slave

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 05:30 AM

I am sooo very sorry to hear about this. As i am going to school to be a vet, i thin kit will be the hardest thing for me to have to do. Thank you for sharing all the pictures and stories. One of my favorites is Poss sleeping next to your arm! I have always wanted my gliders to do that. I am sorry again for what you are going through. I hope that the pain will pass soon for you. Just remember that things happen for a reason, God has a plan for everyone..including you and Poss. you are in my prayers!
Posted By: Judie

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 05:46 AM

I am so sorry you are having to let go of Poss. Please remember...Poss will live on through the wonderfull stories you wrote of him here on Glider Central.

You have been sooo very fortunate to have had him for a friend and for so many wonderfull years. He was loved well. Poss could not have asked for more. He will always be with you ...but in a different light.

May God Bless you both and may He comfort both of you in your hour of need and in the days that follow.

Poss....may you rest in peace. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" />

Posted By: SugarBaby22

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 07:06 AM

<img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> I only learned of Poss a short time ago, when he instantly took a piece of my heart. I really don't have the words to say. I am so so sorry for you, you did the right thing.

Bless his little heart... <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />

<img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/gliderangel.gif" alt="" /> We love you Poss! <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/gliderangel.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: AussiePoss

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 09:54 AM

Thank you everyone <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />
it has been done. he was put to sleep 3 hours ago and i am so empty. he was so bad in the end i just cant forgive myself for not doing it sooner. thank you ellen and everyone for being so supportive. i know it hurts to be here but seeing your words helps.
Posted By: remo

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 12:01 PM

Poss touched so many of our lives in such a special way. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" /> His charisma, his charm, his loving ways shined through like no other glider. To know about Poss was to <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" /> Poss.
I am so very sorry for your loss. Please know that we are all grieving with you. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> Poss definitely made his mark with our glider community.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours,
Dorothy <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" />, Bandit <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/littleglider.gif" alt="" />, and Gypsy <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/littleglider.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 12:15 PM

I enjoyed hearing about Poss and seeing his photos. My favorite was with the grocery cart! <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" /> He will be sadly missed but fondly remembered.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 01:44 PM

<img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" />Amber I can only imagine a fraction of what you are feeling right now. Take comfort in knowing you did the only thing you could for Poss and that was to take away the pain. He knows you love him. It is so hard to make that final decision. I've had to make that decision many times over the years and at timesstill have moments of self doubt but deep down I know that what was done was necessary. I won't tell you the pain will go away. You will always miss him, just as you will always love him. But he is no longer in pain and that was the kindest thing you could do for him.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 01:58 PM

Amber, im so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you. You will soon be reunited with Poss over the rainbow bridge. Im so sorry. I always enjoyed seeing pictures of Poss and the Grocery Cart was my favorite. When i first saw a picture of Poss, I was shocked! He was so big and had a tummy like Santa. All your stories made me laugh. He was a character. He will be deeply missed by you and by all your friends at GliderCENTRAL. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.th - 04/22/03 03:50 PM

Amber, like every one else here I am very sorry for your loss. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> It is very hard to lose a loved especially one that you loved and cared for so deeply. But you will see him again. You did do the right thing. It hurts at the time, but poss is no longer suffering, Poss thanks you. It will still hurt. Like you are trying to do just remember all the good times you had with him. My heart is with you at this sad time in your life <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: Lucy

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 04:59 PM

Amber, when I get home tonight I'll start looking for the posts that I kept. I don't know that the pictures are on my computer, but whenever I saw a post about Poss, I would keep it on my hard drive for this very day. I am more saddened than I can say, and know that Poss knew he was a special glider by the way you loved him. There's no doubt about that. I know the agony you have been in during recent days and weeks, and I agree with what's been said above -- that you did something courageous and very, very unselfish when you allowed him to slip away from the pain. I hope eventually you'll be able to recognize that what you did was the most loving thing you could have done under the circumstances. But for now, we love you, and we love Poss. Just know that.
Posted By: Sheila

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 05:21 PM

Amber, I know poss was like a child to you. You raised him, loved him and watched him grow. Your life will be empty without him and hopefully the memories will fill your life with joy and gladness because you had the opportunity in your life of having such a wonderful pet for so long. I will pray for your comfort.
Posted By: AussiePoss

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 09:34 PM

Im so empty. my boyfriend spent an hour and a half digging a grave for him outside last night in the rain and the dark. he hadnt eaten or gotten anything done he had to and i knew he (with his temperment) was getting the (Poos) with the tree roots in the way but last night he did something i will always love and cherish him for. i could see tears in his eyes. i came home for the first time this morning and i just cant be here. i am hurting so much and my heart is just gone. when we went to bury poss last night the outside light bulb blew (was it a sign from poss) my life is just not the same. i feel no love or comfort. i am so devistated at what has happened and remembering posses good thoughts makes it worse. i have never loved something so strongly in my life and i am suffering so much. i havent accepted he is dead yet. every noise i hear i turn round expecting it to be poss. when jasons belly grumbled last night i thought it was poss. im just a mess.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 09:47 PM

I'm so sorry to hear of this, I'm sitting here in tears just thinking of what you are going threw right now <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" />. I remember the first time I saw Poss, I had to get everyone that I knew over to my house to see his pictures. He was a very loving glider and I wanted all of mine to be just like he was. Kind, loving and full of joy.
You had a very special glider that loved you very much. He understands why you did this for him. You didn't kill him, you put him in a better place where he will no longer have anymore pain. He will be waiting for you at that rainbow bridge full of love and joy.
My heart goes out to you and many tears are being cried right now.
Poss <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/gliderangel.gif" alt="" /> will never be forgotten
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 09:49 PM

Amber...I am so very sorry...I can't even imagine how you must feel...I was completely devastated when I lost Kylie after knowing her for only a few months. I know you must be completely heartbroken and so far beyond sad that words can't even explain it. I know that there is nothing we can say to take the hurt and sadness away, but please know that we are all here for you and sharing your sorrow. I am just glad that you are still able to come to the board and let us know how you are doing, and read what others have said. I know it brought me comfort when I lost Kylie. Know that we all love you and Poss...and his memory will never be forgotten because you shared his life with all of us.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 09:55 PM

Dear Amber,
I have been away for a couple of weeks and just checked in at GC.
I am so saddened by the news of your loss. Poss is such a legend here that I don't know what we will do without him.
Your wonderful stories and beautiful pictures of him have truly inspired our lives. The joy he brought to you has always spilled over to others in our little glider community.
Just know that we are thinking and praying for you in this difficult time.
It is with tears in our eyes that we all bid a heartfelt farewell to your dearest sweet friend. I for one will remember him always.
Our love and thoughts,
Pam and friends.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/22/03 10:48 PM

Awwww I am so sad!!! You are in my prayers.
Posted By: KarenE

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/23/03 01:39 AM

[:"blue"]Amber,
I would have posted before now, but I needed some time because it is impossible for me to type when my eyes are so full of tears for you and what you are going through now.

I hope you are able to take some comfort knowing how much both you and Poss are loved here. [/]
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/23/03 02:05 AM

OH NO, Amber I am soo sorry As soon as I started to read this post at the top of this thread tears started rolling down my eyes. I understand the pain and the feeling of loss you were feeling ebfore and during the process you ahd to go threw to make the Decission you made. I know it was extremely hard for you , BUT please know Poss DOES forgive you and understands his momma was just trying to help him from being so uncomfortable and IN soo much pain. HE knows you loved him with all of your beinig, HE felt it and he knows how hard it was for you to make the choice you did . I know it is hard and I am sooooo Sorry it was a choice that you had to be even faced with. MAny thoughts and prayers are heading your way for a healing in your heart to know and understand he Loved and loves you and Forgives you for the choice you were faced with and had to make .. I am still crying for your loss I am soo Sorry HUn if you need anything meail or call me ok .. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: Ellen

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/23/03 03:40 AM

I just spoke with Amber and she sends her love and thanks everyone for thier support and love. She is doing as well as can be expected.

What she did ask for was a post that made by her about a year ago or so about the travels of Poss. She wrote a story about Poss traveling meeting everyone in the USA.

Does anyone have that link? I know alot of folks saved it. My Pc has crashed many times sinc then so it's gone off of my PC. If you have it please email her or me. She would really love to have that.
Posted By: PepPony

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/23/03 05:53 AM

Pip--I am sorry to hear about the loss of Poss. It is not the quantity of the life a pet lives but the quality of life. Poss had both quality of life and quantity. No Possum could ask for anything more. He was famous in the glider community.

So tonight, I will lift a Foster's to Poss or since we both don't drink maybe a nonalcoholic daquiri. Long live the memory of King Poss! Pip, he will be alive everyday in your memories. i thought of a few today that you might have forgotten about. How about that photos and videos you have a Poss on holiday with you? How about that video of him chasing an insect in your home and the insect got away? That was hysterical! And who could ever forget Poss in the pink thong? See you probably just smiled. So think of the memories and he will live forever. There are many happy ones to recall.

And you should write one of your beautiful poems about him and dedicate it to the memory of Poss. Your poetry is outstanding! What better way to memorialize King Poss. He may not be here physically, but our memories of him will live on forever as they are replayed in our mind's eye.

Take care Pip, you are the best owner a glider could ever wish for and you did have an indeed unique relationship with your little man. It would be a shame if you stay away from the forum because then we all would be losing two good friends. So when you have mourned sufficiently and you only know when that is--please come back and post. Your knowledge of gliders is an asset to this forum. So is your sense of humor. Plus, we will all be waiting on your poetry.

We all mourn with you in your loss. Long live King Poss!

Respectfully,
Pep





Posted By: AussiePoss

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/23/03 10:47 AM

i wrote this a year ago for when it happens.... and it happened just how i thought it would,
I lift the covers that shelter you
Hold out the hand that comforts you
Once beautiful eyes enriched with happieness
Now dull, faded with sadness
Still you hold out your hand
Investigate what mine has to offer
Is it food? Or love nestled there
Your chatter awakens my thoughts
And I smile as I see my old friend again
Chatter turns to staring at open spaces
I know you see me but am I really there?
Your eyes melt right through me
I have to touch you, see if you are in heaven
Every breath you take
Spears me with sadness
I am left with a shadow of what I had
Your true character gone with the wind
Every second of everyday
I prey for you
I stop and ask people in the street
People I don&#8217;t even know
To prey for my love
I cry tears of feeling helpless
I want to help you so much
I want to hold on to our moments for so much longer
My miricle baby, I love you
I cry tears as I write these words
Tears the whole world will feel and see
You are my soul, my spirit
My one and only reason to love
Please don&#8217;t leave me
I love you, I know you feel it
Im just not ready to let you go&#8230;
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/23/03 01:48 PM

Amber, that is so beautiful! (From what I could read through the tears.) You and Poss had such a special bond and were very blessed to have had each other.
My heart just breaks for you! <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/23/03 07:36 PM

Amber,
I am so very sorry for your loss and do know exactly (today again, in fact)how you feel. Making -the decision- and carrying through is the hardest thing a person can ever do. But, as much as it rips your heart, it is the loving and compassionate thing to do. Your Poss knew how deeply, how fiercely you loved him, and as much as he clung to life out of love for you, you must know that he loved you even more for helping him do what he couldn't do for himself.
For you and your most beloved soul-mate, many share your tears and heartache.

Eke <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: Carrie T

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/23/03 10:32 PM

Amber,
There are no words to express the sorrow I feel for you. When I had to put my cat of 16 1/2 years down, five minutes after I left the vets the song Seasons In The Sun came on the radio. Even my husband who scoffs at things like that, knew it was my Cakey saying good bye to me. I am so sorry for you. The next few months will be hard. We will all be with you though and I hope we can ease things for you in your time of grief. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/littleglider.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/littleglider.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/littleglider.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/littleglider.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />

<img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frostyangel.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/23/03 11:02 PM

<img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> I can't even imagine the sorrow you are feeling right now, but I am feeling some of it as well.

Poss was a very special glider with an equally special Mom. He is now an angel and I am sure that he will watch over you until it is your time to join him.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/24/03 12:21 AM

Amba, geez girl Im so sorry Im late hearing about this. Ive been so busy lately I miss a lot of things. This is awful news. My heart is breaking with you. Ive known you for a large part of my 6 years in keeping gliders. We've talked and shared so much over that time I feel like you are my direct family. I would hate like all he** to see you disappear from GC. Even with my life being busy with college and all, I still try to check in. You arent feeling any love or comfort? Well, I love you!! Looks like a lot of these people do. Try to take comfort in that? I know you're in pain but staying here and posting might be best for you since so many people here love you too.

I dont know what I can do for you, but I will make time for you if you would like. To talk to me, cry to me..whatever you need. I will make the time. I dont care how much homework I have. Im also sorry I missed your ICQ message last night. I was working online after class and I fell asleep in the middle of it. Im sorry.

Hugs and Im here for you if you need. I will be up tonight looking for you. Im sorry about this whole thing, lots of love from me.
Posted By: AussiePoss

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/24/03 12:30 AM

Thanks guys and kimy no problem. i have a good cry when i come on here and see his pics, the posts etc. i will be away this weekend so i wont be online, i think being away will help, but i feel so aweful because im leaving poss ( yes i know hes burried) but im guilty like im abandoning him. it will take time to accept and feel he is gone, but at the moment i dont feel him in my heart, outside or anywhere around me. i asked him before he went to please try and give me signs he was ok, but i feel nothing. i watched the video i made of him 2 weeks ago before he got sick and he was chattering and making his noises, first time i ever got it on video and to see him moving and to hear him i felt he was still alive. it is killing me but i know he wants me to be happy, problem is i feel so guilty even breaking a smile because im scared he thinks im over it and feel nothing that hes gone <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/24/03 12:55 AM

Oh, Amber
that is SOO sweet My heart greaves with you although we have never met and I have never gotten the joy of seeing POss in person but everytime I see his pictures here on the board that you hadd posted I still smile at that adorable face of his , you were both soo pleased to have each other for as long as you did , I pray That I Will as long of a time with My jack and my others as you did with POss. I strill cry with you as I read the words tyou write about your swwet Precioous POss, Please know and rember I am here if you need to talk or if you Just need an ear to listen ok .. PLease email me and I will give you a number that you and only you can get ahold of me on ok .
Posted By: kb2e

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/24/03 04:07 AM

Amber, so sorry to hear of Poss's passing. May your heart heal with time. Wish I could give you a hug. Hope you do make it here for the SGGA, would love to see you.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/24/03 03:53 PM

I'm so very sorry and want to share my deepest sympathy. Maybe when more time has passed, you can come back to this thread and be a tiny bit comforted by all the people who support you and share in your experience. Also, I wanted to let you know how much joy Poss has brought to COUNTLESS members here, more than you could imagine! I've never posted to you, but I've read almost all the posts about Poss and have loved sharing his story. I think the most courageous thing you could do was help him to rest, without pain. And I know that he's there watching over you.

We will ALL remember Poss! <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/gliderangel.gif" alt="" />

Crystal
Posted By: AussiePoss

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/24/03 09:33 PM

I just dont feel it ever getting any better, i know it probably will, but im just so lost. i watched more video of him last night <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" /> i laughed and i cried. i dont know if its good for me to watch motion pictures of him or not. it just confuses me more and makes it feel he is still alive <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/24/03 10:19 PM

Amber,

I am so sorry you have lost Poss. I know that our animals are like our children and it just breaks our hearts to lose one of them. May your heart heal with time <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/25/03 01:23 AM

I am so sorry that you had to go through this. It is so hard to lose someone that we love, and I could tell by all of the pictures and stories how close you and Poss were.

Just know that you are as much a part of him as he is of you, and every little smile and laugh you make he feels along with you. He's looking down watching over you, and I know he wants you to be happy and to see you smile and hear you laugh. For so many years together, you were his whole life, his love and his happiness. You gave him the gift of a world filled without pain when you knew it was just too much for him, that is the most unselfish thing you could have done. I know he would want you to be happy.

Don't feel guilty about an innocent smile or feeling of warmth, because it may just be Poss' way of telling you it's okay, that he is in a better place and that you shouldn't feel sad anymore. Maybe those smiles and that laughter are those signs you asked him to leave for you, so that you know he is happy and well.

I am so very sorry for your loss, and I've sat here and read through all of these posts with tears running down my face. Alec walked in and wanted to know what was the matter, and I just started bawling...Please know that you are in my thoughts and my prayers.

May your little Poss rest in peace. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/26/03 05:35 AM

Amber, I was told this when my father died by someone that meant alot to me. I have thought it over alot and I know it is true.

When someone dies they are not truely gone until no one remembers them anymore. As long as someone somewhere remembers them and passes on their story they are still among us and still are a part of us. Poss will be with us, many of us, for many many years to come. He is gone from this phyical world but he made a huge imprint on alot of us. Your stories of your times together have given us all so much, and your courage has given us much too. I know that you hurt and you will, you will miss him for a long time. He was a part of your life for a long time. But please know this too, Poss will be in our stories for a long time, for years, he will continue.

I know that Poss loved you very much and he would not want you to stop smiling. Every smile that you have right now is for him, becuase you love him and you can carry on because he helped you to be a strong person.

You are in my heart and my thoughts. Poss will be in the stories that I tell everyone about gliders for all my life. You are both very inspiring. Your poetry and stories are very special.

Poss will watch over you. When they are that special to us they always watch over us.
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Posted By: AussiePoss

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/27/03 05:02 AM

last 2 posts put tears in my eyes and i started to bawl to.
i have been away 2 days and being away from home made it easier. when i got back there is his huge pic on the wall staring down at me. i feel a little better but im still hurting so much. life is so different. i still expect him to come out and beg for food <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />
all of these posts have made me want to come and meet yall so much more because i feel like we are all like family. i dont know if comming here eases my pain or helps with it because i just cry when i read the posts you all kindly leave me. i guess its dealing and healing with it?
Posted By: AussiePoss

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/28/03 09:20 AM

Peppie just wanted to thank you for your card. i cant find your email addy? to reply so im sorry. it was a lovely thought thank you so much.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 04/28/03 09:53 AM

Amber,
I have always enjoyed reading stories about Poss and your travels with him. I especially love the pictures and videos of Poss. I want to thank you for taking time to share with us the pictures and videos and stories about Poss, as Poss was truly an amazingly well-bonded glider, just as you are an equally amazing woman. Please know that we all are your family and we are here for you and with you. May time and memories heal you. Poss will always be in your heart and may you find comfort in that. I think what you have done is the most unselfish thing you have ever done.
Like Kimmy said, I love you! We at GC love you!
You will find that I have sent you a private message with a request you had made.

Jennifer
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: Goodbye, It breaks my heart to tell you all.this - 10/24/03 05:56 PM

I know this is really late, however i had some conversations with you about poss over a year ago, and i am very saddenned to have found out the bad news. I never met the little devil, but i knew he was special by the way you talked about him. I hope that you are doing better now, i felt the same way you did a few months ago when i had to put my Ferret down, because he wouldnt eat and had lost so much weight i couldnt even look at him. I still struggle with the fact that i was the one that had him killed. and that has been months for me also. I still have dreams about him and miss him, i know you feel the same about Poss. thanks for sharing your and poss' life with us! it has made all of us better thanks to you.

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