Well, I have finally posted in the one forum that I never wanted to. Shami is dead. I am on medicine that is on a changing dose and today was a mojor change and a bad day to boot. My bad days are really hard on me. They are like putting an electrical cord to your spinal column. Around 5 pm I lost consiousness with 2 gliders around my neck. I remember feeding my cats, and them being loose and my medication made me tired so I just went to bed with my gliders in a locking drawstring pouch around my neck. At 2 am when I woke up, I found my darling Shami in pieces in my cat's mouth. Somehow she got out of the pouch and the cat got her. I froze. It took me nearly two hours to work up the courage to put her in a little coffin. I know I can never be a good glider owner now. I just hope my other gliders and her cagemate Fox can forgive me. I know I never will. I love you Shami. Glide high forever.....


Kara

.. Oh Kara. ..tears sprang to my eyes when I read this. I really don't know what to say .. textual condolences are never enough, rarely even verbal ones are.. If I could give you a hug, I would. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" /> But for what it's worth, please know you're in my thoughts. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/worried2.gif" alt="" />

(((((((((((HUG)))))))))))))

I am so sorry. I am saying a prayer for you and your little angel. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frostyangel.gif" alt="" /> I am always here if you want someone to talk to.
Angie

[:"blue"]Kara,
Shaz is so right. Words at a time like this seem so inadequate, and we feel so helpless to console you.

I know that you are blaming yourself, but please don't. I too have lost a glider to an accident, and blaming ourselves is the first thing we do.

Time will help you heal and never never think you are a bad glider mom.

Our thoughts and prayers are with you. [/]

Kara, I'm so sorry for your loss. She is in Glider Heaven now, gliding high and watching over you from her place in the sky. Your other gliders know you loved her, and them, so don't beat yourself up over this. It was an accident, and it happens to even the best.

We are thinking about you. ((((((((((((( <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />))))))))))))

I am so sorry Kara, big virtual ((((hug))).

Karin

Oh Kara! Im so so very sorry... I know you must be heartbroken. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" /> I wish I had some magic words to make you feel much better... Please know that, I dont care what you say about thinking your not a good Glider Mommy... Ive seen you with Gliders... Your a WONDERFUL and caring Glider Mom! And it is quite evident that you love your babies... <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
What happened to little Shami and you, was an accident... Accidents are not intentional. I know in my heart that you would never EVER intentionally harm one of your babies. Im so sorry this terrible accident happened. I know its easier said than done...but please, dont be so hard on yourself. Many hugs and good thoughts to you. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />

Kara,
I know you and I know that you would never do anything that would intentionally hurt your little loves. It was an accident. You are not to blame. The medication is changing and you didn't know that it would render you unconscious. The cat is not to blame, it was only being a cat. The other gliders will not blame you. You are their mom and friend. We don't blame you. We all have had accidents that have injured or claimed the life of our little ones. Some could be prevented, some couldn't. It is something that happens. She will not blame you for it. She is now your other gliders little guardian angel. She knows that it was an accident. Please do not fret and worry that you are not a good mom. You are an excellent mom, friend, and person. We love you and hope that you know that we are all here for you.
Love and face hugs,
Rashell

No, you are not a terrible owner. You simply are human and an accident happened. Your love for animals shows through in all you do and say. Take care and quit beating up on yourself. My prayers are with you. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />

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*Throws arms around Kara* Oooh, honey...I'm gonna' cry. Of course, I didn't know your baby, but I feel your pain. I lost my parrot this summer while I was away from home. He died from a tumor-like growth that he had since birth. Listen to me, don't blame yourself! Your baby knows it isn't your fault, and he wouldn't want you to accuse yourself about his death!
Know that we all love you and are here for you to rant and rave to. This is something we all have been (or will be) through. The real test of your strength is whether you can keep going, and not let this get in the way of loving your other sugars (or your cats). Especially the one that killed your baby. Remember those are natural instincts, and it would just kill your cat for it to know it broke your heart!
After my bird died, I stayed in bed all day--SOBBING! My heart shattered. What hurt most was that we had been going through a hard time, and I don't even know if he knew that I still loved him. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/crying.gif" alt="" /> *Cries* But God helped me through it, and know that I am praying for you! When God takes our babies from us, it is REALLY hard. You've gotta' understand, that maybe some little girl up in heaven was taken from her parents and she needs a suggie angel to comfort her. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/gliderangel.gif" alt="" />


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oh I am so so so sorry! I know how much it hurts to lose your loved one.. believe me! But just hang in their for your other guy! Just know that it wasn't your fault..
again.. I am so so very sorry. I will pray for you <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
(((((*HUGS*)))))

Kristi

Kara - Like others, I wish there was some magical phrase or word to put your heart at ease. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" /> Sadly, there isn't. Shami is at Rainbow Bridge and will be there for you ..... Try to take comfort in that and let your heart heal. I'm so sorry <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/gliderangel.gif" alt="" />

Please do not be so hard on yourself! Unfortunately, the cat was doing what comes naturally to him/her. It was a tragic accident, and no one is to blame.
May you find comfort in your memories of Shami! <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />

This is the saddest thing I think I have read! Please try not to blame yourself - or your kitty. I used to have cockatiels and cats, and I know what a challenge it is to keep them separate. That's because cats are cats, and that's why we love them. You are a good glider mom - the best, because you did the best you could for your little one. This was an accident.

Kara,
Nothing can ever replace Shami. I just hope that Lida will bring some comfort. You are a wonderful mom and I am honored to know you. Kisses to both Fox (he is a beauty) and Lida. Give yourself time to mourn and grow to love Lida. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/muchlove.gif" alt="" />

How are you doing Kara? <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />

I am doing better, but every day is still hard. I have had Shami's funeral. It wasn't what it should have been, but we didn't have much money. I have found out that what caused me to pass out was the amount of medicine I took that was prescribed by my doctor turned out to be too much for my body to handle, but there was ABSOLUTELY no way to have been able to know that my body would have reacted like it did. I just am having a hard time seeing why Shami had to die because of it, though. It was a terrible and tragic accident that could not have been foreseen. I guess I just miss my baby so much. I can still see her happily running around and chewing on the other cages, or rubbing my chest to get her smell on me and get my smell on her. I loved that about her. I loved all the little things that made her who she was. The way she would hog all the BML, or throw it at Fox if he annoyed her. And boy did she eat a lot, too. For only 72 grams she could really pack it in. I just miss her. I see evidences of her everywhere and I am so afraid of losing those little memories. They are so precious to me right now. I guess that is how I am. Thanks for asking. I am also, worried about Fox. He is still calling for Shami at night. I hold him all day in the pouch, and play with him 2 hours each night. I don't know what else to do. He is just starting to get a bit lonely, I think. I don't want to rush Lida though. I just want Fox to be happy and for us all to find some peace with this time.

Kara <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/upset.gif" alt="" />

ps. Lida has calmed down a little bit, but she is still real scared. I am guessing she is gonna be a tough sell, but if so, she will be even sweeter once won over. Prayers for her that she will relax soon, too.

Aww Kara, it's just going to take time, hun. I know you miss her so much. Try to remember all the good things, and do not dwell on the bad. She knew you loved her, and she is across the Bridge, watching over you now. If there's anything I can do, please let me know.

I am sure little Lida will calm down soon. She's got a wonderful glider mommy who will help her all the way, butI will still pray for you. Take care, and remember....don't let the bad overshadow the good.

Kara, I don't know what else to say but my thoughts and prayers are with you. I know this isn't much, but it's the most I can offer.. i wish I could do more. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />

Please take care. It was a terrible, tragic accident, but it sounds like one that could not have been avoided. Whenever something like this happens, a thousand 'what ifs' go through our heads.. but in reality, there's nothing that could of been done.

I'm sure Shami misses you just as much.. and cherishes the memories of your time together just as you do.

((((HUGS))))
Rest up, get your strength back and continue caring for your gliders like the wonderful mother you are. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />

Oh Kara! I so enjoyed you sharing some of the Memories you have of Shami! Those are wonderful memories!!! <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />
Thanks for the update...

That really stinks about your medicine. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />
Im so sorry that happened.

Hopefully the medicine part is all straightened out now!
Hugs and Prayers for you! <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/heartpump.gif" alt="" />