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I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........

Posted By: Anonymous

I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 02:16 AM

I never thought I would have to be posting in here until my gliders had many years behind them. I have had my first glider cross the bridge and it is my fault that he is dead. My husband went out of town for the weekend and I don't like being alone so I planned on staying with my family over the weekend. I came home yesterday afternoon on my way back from a doctors appointment to check on the animals and feed them all and give them some loves before going to stay at my grandparents with my son. I had also picked up some Super worms at Pet Co for Striker because he loves meal worms and I thought he would be so happy with these. I was so excited to get home and feed those to him and hear his happy chirps. I went to grab the pouch with my trio and found that it was empty. They had all somehow escaped from their cage though I don't know how because all the doors were shut. Well on top of the fridge I found Gypsy and Sophia cuddled up sleeping in a cereal box but no Striker. I searched everywhere and couldn't find him. Then the thought crossed my mind. The bathroom. The door was wide open. I slowly went in there not wanting to see what I knew I was going to. There floating in the water was my beloved Striker. I just screamed and started crying. The hardest part was with my husband being gone I was the one that had to take him out. It was so hard to see him there. I took him out with a towel and put him in a box that I plan on burying him in once hubby gets here to help. I feel so awful and I just can't get over the guilt. Thank God I had plans with my family last night because I would have been a blubbering mess by myself. I can't stop thinking of him. I can't stop thinking of how I killed him. We are usually so good about keeping the lid down. Why this time that I left the lid up did it have to be the time he decided to get out and fall in? If I would have been home I would have heard him in the water and could have saved him but I wasn't. I can't stop thinking about him in the water, so scared. Was he calling for his friends? Did he call for me? I can't stop thinking about the pain he must have been in trying to get out and the last breath he took while the water burned his little lungs. I woke up this morning and for a moment thought it was all a dream and that it all just hit me again. It's real and he is not coming back. I took away his life and I took away the best friend of his two girls Gypsy and Sophia. Tomorrow I will be going to deliver 2 rehomed girls to their new mommy. A part of me doesn't even want to go anywhere. I just want to stay at home curled up on the couch but these girls are going to a great home and this will help keep my mind off of what I did. I also know it's what Striker would have wanted.

I want to tell you all a little about Striker. He was my first WF and I just brought him home in Jan. I drove 10 hours one day to get him and TracieB out of the goodness of her heart drove 6 hours to help get him to me. (I'm so sorry Tracie...he was your nephew and I now you loved him too) He was such a beautiful boy and absolutely loved his girls. He just enjoyed grooming them so much and cuddling up with them at night. It was such a joy to watch him with them because you could just see the affection. He loved his meal worms more than any of my gliders. Instead of nicely grabbing one with his mouth, his little hand would shoot out to grab those things. He would beg at the side of the cage until I gave him one. He had the must beautiful big eyes and it was so hard to say no to that. He was just beautiful all over. I am going to miss him so much and I don't know how to get over his death and all the guilt. Gypsy is now expecting twins from him and seems to be about 4 weeks along(I never saw them mate). I want to do something special to remember Striker...to not have his death be for nothing. I want you all to help me find a good place to donate money to in Striker's name for glider research. When these babies are old enough to sell I'm going to have the money given directly to what ever place I can find that will be doing their best to make sure gliders our healthy and well taken care of here in the US. I am open to all suggestions and could really use your help with this. I think it will really help me in the healing process. Thank God that Gypsy has Sophia in there so she should help Gypsy raise these babies with Striker being gone. Dear God my boy doesn't even get to see his first babies...his only babies. I know he would have been a great dad. Here is a thread on making a ladder for your toilet here.
Please do this. We were very good about putting down the lid but not everyone is perfect...no one. It can happen to anyone.

I have given my gliders the best life that I can...that I know how. I couldn't protect him though...I couldn't save him. I'm so sorry baby....I'm so sorry. I hope you know that I love you and I always will. I will never ever forget you.


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Posted By: Xglider

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 02:20 AM

I am so sorry …. For you and you family … love and hugs …
Posted By: Mel2mdl

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 02:26 AM

Oh Dez - I am so sorry to hear of your loss! Accidents can happen to anyone! It is not your fault - it was an accident. Thank God the other two weren't with him and didn't get hurt. I am sending hugs and prayers your way!
Posted By: mattysmom

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 02:26 AM

I am so very sorry this happened to Striker and to you. Sometimes everything goes wrong for absolutely no reason and there's nothing you can do about it. Please be gentle with yourself.
Posted By: dranger1108

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 03:12 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss....
((hugs))
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 03:17 AM

Oh my I'm so sorry you had to go through this... Please don't be so hard on yourself, things happen that are out of our control, no matter how hard we try. Striker was very lucky to have you.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 03:18 AM

Dez, don't be so hard on yourself. This same thing has happened to many dedicated and careful suggie slaves. In fact, at the first SGGA I went to, I remember Lucy presenting the data she had gathered in the death database and saying that the number one cause of death for captive gliders was drowning, usually in the toilet. I'm not sure if after gathering more data, it has remained the most common cause, but it is VERY common. You are not alone. Accidents just happen.

Maybe reading your post will make other glider slaves jump up and check their toilets and/or cages as I'm about to do as soon as I hit submit. I'm staying at my parent's house this weekend, and the gliders are in their travel cage, which they've never escaped from, but which I don't feel is quite as secure as their regular cage. I think I'll go find something to reinforce the latch.

I'm so sorry this happened to Striker, but at least you still have Gypsy and Sophia. Give them some extra luvin!
Posted By: BlndGrl8

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 03:24 AM

Oh Dez!! hug2 :Hug2: I am so so sorry to hear about little Striker! Accidents can happen to anyone and I'm so sorry it happened at this time to you. Striker will forever be in your heart and I know I will never forget his little face either, because I LOVE that picture of them in the cracker box! He is very precious and I'm sure his babies will be just like him! hug2
Posted By: GliderHappy81

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/22/07 03:29 AM

cry Im so sorry cry
Posted By: Gliderbuff

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/22/07 03:32 AM

I am so sorry about the feelings you are dealing with. I know them firsthand all too well. Please try, even if it's in the future, to understand that YOU didn't kill him. cry

In these times of life it's important to see that it was merely time for him to go. I know that doesn't help right now. It didn't help me at first, but I believe that in time you will see.

Sweetheart, I mourn with you and your girls so much, so please forgive what may seem like harshness right now. However, these are facts you must accept. Did you MEAN for him to die? Was it your hand that put him there? No, honey. Blaming yourself will only delay you from remembering him the way God wants you to.

Mourn now. For as long as you need. Don't skip any step. But please try to understand YOU DID NOT KILL HIM!!!!! For years I have tried to fight the idea that I have caused the glider deaths in my home by not being thorough enough. Not minding EVERY POSSIBLE DANGER. How could you have been perfect? My love, no one is. Don't let guilt stop your heart from healing. It is NOT what Striker would want for you.

I will say again, you didn't take him in your hands and hold him under. THAT would be killing him. YOU DID NOT twist his neck and break it. THAT would be killing him.

You enriched his life with a loving new home, a harem just waiting for him exclamation , a chance to father joeys, and mealies for love, comfort, and spoiling... YOU ARE A WONDERFUL MOMMY! And we here at GC are not only mourning with you, we believe in you, and will carry you until you can stand again, for your darling girls.

I you need to talk, yell, cry, or scream, I am a night owl in the truest sense. Here is my cell, it is on 24/7. I love your dedication and spirit. They will serve you and your little loved ones in the future as well as thru this present crisis.

214-684-3552. BTW if you need ME to call YOU, just let me know, because my cell is free all night, sweetheart. ANY TIME, ANY REASON...

Kara H. aka Gliderbuff

Mourning with you..... cry gangel

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Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 03:33 AM

As A guy I am well aware about the toilet seat thing. My ex "fell" in one nite due to a lazy furf. I will never leave the seat up again. My Rump still hurt from that Rump chewing. (smile it will do you good)

Again This is unusal for me to be in this thread but your topic caught my eye. I am deeply sorry for your loss. Again do not beat your self up too badly. but keep your head up your two girls need your love just as much as ever.

I would send you hugs but your arms are probally sore from all the hugs so instead take a kiss MUAH.
Posted By: RSXTC

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 03:41 AM

Oh my gosh, I am so sorry. upset

hug2
Posted By: tbull

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 03:43 AM

Oh Dez, I am so sorry for your loss. Call me anytime if you need to talk. And please don't blame yourself, accidents happen. I know what a careful mom you are, and Striker knew how much you loved him.

hug2 hug2 hug2 hug2

If you decide you would like another beautiful little boy to help with your's and Gypsy's grief, let me know. I would be proud to give you my little guy. He is 12 weeks OOP now and a great babysitter. No one will ever take Striker's place, but you know where I live if you want to come get him.


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Posted By: ValkyrieMome

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 04:22 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss. Please don't blame yourself.

Hugs.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/22/07 04:23 AM

I was going to wait till tomorrow to talk to you about what happened, but I saw this post and just had a feeling it was yours...
I'm sooo very sorry!!!!! I wish there was something I could do to ease your pain... Know we're all here for you, no matter what, and if you should need anything, or just someone to talk to, all you have to do is say so.
*HUGZ* I will talk to you more tomorrow. I'm so sorry Dez. I wish I knew what to say to make this better, but I don't...
Posted By: snowmanda

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/22/07 04:35 AM

hug2 hug2 hug2 hug2 hug2 hug2 hug2 hug2 hug2 hug2
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/22/07 05:07 AM

Oh my! I am SO sorry you've lost your baby in such a horrible way, but please, do not blame yourself. We're all human and we can do our best to keep them safe and it's not always enough. What were the odds that the one time you forgot the seat that he would escape his cage?

And, it doesn't matter how it happened....we recently lost our beloved Amelie to natural causes, but we're still racked with guilt...did we do all that we could? Did we somehow contribute to her death? Etc.

In the end, all we can do is love them with all our hearts and hope that they know how much we care for them. I'm soo so sorry for your loss.
Posted By: KattyM

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 05:33 AM

Oh, Dez! I am so sorry to read your story about little Striker. Please, please be kind to yourself. Accidents do happen, and that's what this was, an accident. Your story, with the link to the post about glider ladders as well as the bathroom signs, will no doubt help many who read your tragic story. Everyone who comes to my home knows how much I love my sugar babies, and yet I am constantly hovering around the bathroom after they've used it, just to make sure the toilet seat is put back down. Almost always, it is left up! I have yet to make a ladder and print out those signs myself, and your story is a somber reminder for me to do so. heart

Give your two girls extra love and kisses, and get some much-needed rest. When we're tired, especially when we're distraught, it's especially easy to make mistakes. I know that's the case for me. frown Take time to grieve; take time for yourself. But take it easy on yourself. You are not to blame. You can't play the "what if" game. Without knowing the reasons, I do believe that everything happens exactly as it should. It was Striker's time. hug2
Posted By: Xfilefan

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 09:18 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss, and know how much it hurts. hug2 hug2 Even when you know for a fact nothing you could have done would have helped, you still wonder if you could have done more. Please don't feel you're at fault. Depending on how long he'd been there, even a ladder may not have saved him. I remember the one picture from pic of the week, also. He'll still be here as long as you remember him. hug2
Posted By: sugarglidersuz

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 11:44 AM

Dez,
I'm so very sorry cry As I read through your post, the tears were flowing down - your agony came through so vividly. As everyone else has already said, you really shouldn't blame yourself. YOU are not to blame. Accidents do happen, even to the most vigilant of us. In fact, I just went to check my boys' bathroom and found their toilet seat up, in spite of the Toilet Safety Sign on the back of the tank tant You can be sure I'll be having a "chat" with them today!

Know that during the time you had with Striker, he knew he was loved and cared for. You will have the legacy of his joeys to carry on. The girls still have each other.

As for a good organization to donate to for glider research, I'm not sure of an answer on that one. However, I DO know that Peggy (Srlb) is setting aside the proceeds from her new book about gliders for glider research. You may want to contact her to find out if there's a place you can donate the joey proceeds to.

Know that we are here for you. If you need to call me & talk, I'm here for you: 440-953-0904 (home) or 440-520-4799 (cell).
hug2 hug2 hug2
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 11:48 AM

cry Sending you lotz of hugz and I am sorry that you have had to experience the loss of your handsome suggie Striker.
Please don't be hard on yourself unfortunate accidents happen. I am glad to know that your lil mother is not going to be alone when Strikers babies come oop.
Your in my prayers. I know it was hard for you to share your story as it was for all to read but if it saves on lil glider then Strikers passing was not invane. Thank you for sharing Striker with all of us.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 01:11 PM

I'm soo sorry for you loss frown . I just woke up to read this and I sit here and cry for you and how you must have felt. Please do not blame yourself! My son (5) and daughter (6) are sitting here and I told them about what happened and showed them his pics and they are crying too. My son left and went to check the potty lids, without having been told to do so. I'm so very sorry. THank you for putting that link we are going out tomorrow to buy that as a back up. (It's amazing how such a small animal can touch us in such a BIG way). I wish we could put that (pic of the week) of your babies back up there TODAY for you!!!???!!!
Posted By: FURBYnGIZMO

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 01:30 PM


Dez I'm so sorry that you are in such heartache and that you lost Striker hug2

Please don't beat yourself up about this...I know the pain must be overwhelming but it truly was not your fault worried

No pet lover should have to commit to staying home 24 hours in the event of an escape or 'what ifs'...this was in every way an accident hug2

He was so very loved by you and his girls and he took that love he has in return with him.

Keep his living memory alive and try to not think of how you last saw him cry

You have his girls and bless your heart for wanting to donate something in his name heart

If you haven't already please take a moment to solve the mystery of how they got out in the first place worried

Again I'm so sorry hug2

Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 03:30 PM

Oh Dez... your post broke my heart all over again. I lost my very first glider to a drowning and I know exactly how you feel. It truly is not your fault hun. Much love to you and the girls. They will help you through it. I had nothing after Loki... but you are not alone. You'll be ok. And Striker knows it isn't your fault. Hang in there... hug2
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 03:46 PM

so sorry, prayers and hugs to you,, to keep his memory alive , and help others remember, maybe you can make a sign with his picture on it and also put a ladder with it , as a pkg. if they came together, more may put both in bathroom, his memory ,will help save others, god bless
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/22/07 04:40 PM

Thank you all so much for your kind words. You are the only ones that really understand the love I have for my gliders because you feel it too for your own. I am still overwhelmed with guilt and the "what if's." I just can't get over that. I've also checked over their whole cage again and can not find anywhere they could have gotten out of. The one other time they escaped(the cracker box picture) I found that one of the doors where the food dishes go in stuck so when I put in the food dish the door would not fall down and close so it would be left open. So I don't ever use that door because I'm afraid that I will forget to close it manually. Now the only thing I can think of is that when I took them out in their pouch to spend time with me on Thursday and get their mealies that I left the door open. It stays open by itself if it is opened all the way so I had to of done that and the reason the door wasn't open when I got home was that they jumped on it or climbed on it when they were out and it shut on it's own. So that makes me feel even more awful and more guilty because I can't figure out any other way they could have all escaped. I want to at some point find another little WF boy to put in with the girls after the joeys are old enough and have their new homes but that's just going to be hard. T you are such a sweetie. Thank you so much for your offer but with your little WF boy being Sophie's half brother I would either have to split Sophie and Gypsy up(which I just won't do because they are bonded and need each other especially after the lose of Striker) or have him in another cage and find another friend for him and I don't want to have a permanant 4th cage because I want to be sure that I have enough time for everyone. You have always been such a good friend T and you are such a good person. Thank you so much for always being there for me. I was so looking forward to those beautiful WF babies from him. I just hope Gypsy's baby are okay and that they are WF's and everything goes well. That will be quite a bit of money to donate in Striker's name from those babies. Thank you Sue for the info on glider research. I'm going to contact Srlb(Peggy) about where she is going to give her money to.

I miss him so much already. Taking the girls out yesterday and then today...the pouch just seems so empty. They aren't complete...they are without Striker. I just wish I could bring him back but I know he is in such a better place then I could have ever given him. I take comfort in that but not in the fear and pain he must have endured....that and the guilt are what is making this so hard.

I can't believe the outpouring and support of this board I have received just since last night. I don't think there is a closer community here on the web. I trust many of you more than I trust most people. You are all wonderful, kind, big-hearted, compassionate people. I consider all of you good friends. Thank you such much for helping me through this hard time. There is no way I could have made it without you. hug2
Posted By: StitchsMom

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/22/07 06:36 PM

cry Oh, honey, that is so terrible. My heart goes out to you! hug2

Hang in there. Do not blame yourself. You are a great suggie slave. This was just an very unfortunate set of circumstances. hug2
Posted By: GliderLove

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/22/07 07:27 PM

cry I feel so bad for you, DO NOT beat yourself up though,Accidents do happen, and sometimes they hurt,take comfort that he knew you loved him. hug2
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/22/07 07:30 PM

So sorry to hear of your loss. Please don't blame yourself. Accidents happen, and it is just in the nature of suggies to get into mischief and trouble...that is part of the reason we love them so much.

I'm sure if Striker was still here, he would not be upset with you; he'd be happy you gave him such a good and happy life for so long.

Our thoughts are with you
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/22/07 08:30 PM

Dez, do not blame yourself. I felt the same way when Kobe was taken. If only I hadn't left him at home that night. Your own words were for me to not blame myself. My heart goes out to you. I'm so sorry you lost your baby. If you ever need to talk, please feel free to bend my ear. I'm always happy to listen.

Lots of love
Posted By: minkasmom

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/22/07 09:15 PM

cry Dez, I'm almost blind from the tears blurring my eyes. I know all too well the guilt & shoulda/woulda/coulda game that you're playing with yourself over this incident. (Mine involved a washing machine lid...I don't even want to say anymore lest I spend the rest of the day crying over something that I learned after many, many tears that it didn't change what happened.)

Give your 2 little ladies an extra set of hug2 from all of us and have an extra hug2 for yourself. It is VERY FORTUNATE that all 3 of them didn't end up there.... cry cry that's more than one soul can bear to handle.....

I'm so sorry for your loss. Be comforted in knowing that your grief is being shared by many all across the country.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/22/07 09:25 PM

Im sooo sorry for your loss! Accidents do happen so dont blame yourself!
If you ever need to talk feel free! Im here for you!
Posted By: jannee66

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/22/07 09:36 PM

I'm so sorry for your loss!....be strong for your other babies and the lil ones on the way.....xoxoxoxo
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I've laid Striker to rest..... - 04/22/07 11:00 PM

Thank you all again for your words. You don't know how much they have meant to me and how much they have helped. It is wonderful to know I have great peeople behind me. I buried Striker this afternoon after I returned from delivering the rehomes to their new mommy. I took him out of the box I had put him in to wrap him in a nice fleece blankie. I hadn't looked at his face when I took him out of the toilet but I just had to today. I just had to have that affirmation that yes it was him and he was gone. He looked so peaceful...it was just like he was sleeping and hard to believe he was gone. He looked so beautiful. I just cried over him and told him how sorry I was. I wrapped him in the fleece blanket gently and placed him in the box. I put a note in there telling him how much I love him and how wonderful he was. I buried him deep in my flower garden where I plant flowers every spring. He will have beautiful flowers on his resting place every summer.

From a song by Chris Rice....

And with your final heartbeat
Kiss the world goodbye
Then go in peace, and laugh on Glory's side, and
Glide to Jesus
Glide to Jesus
Guide to Jesus and live!
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I've laid Striker to rest..... - 04/23/07 02:22 AM

oh i'm sooooooooooo sry i still remember the day you got him and how happy you were. I remember the post well. I just hope that one of his babies looks just like him so that maybe you can keep one in place of your beloved little guy, that way you can always remember him and the legacy he left. RIP little guy. ((hugs))
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I've laid Striker to rest..... - 04/23/07 03:20 AM

I am so very sorry for your loss ! The most important thing to remember is it's not your fault ! Accidents happen all the time and although this is horrible that you are the one dealing with this pain you are saving endless amounts of suggies from suffering the same fate by sharing your story ! Thank you for reminding everyone how important it is to take the proper precautions with suggies and toilets !
Posted By: LSardou

Re: I've laid Striker to rest..... - 04/23/07 04:18 AM

cry cry cry My heart aches for you. I am so sorry that you have to deal with this unexpected loss. I wished there was a way that when things like this happen that God could take away all the pain. It's hard, but please know, that all of us are sending you tons of love and comfort. hug2
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I've laid Striker to rest..... - 04/23/07 01:06 PM

I'm really sorry for your loss. Your heart must be in pieces. I've lost my first glider 12 days ago and the pain is still there. I understand how you feel hug2
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I've laid Striker to rest..... - 04/23/07 01:59 PM

Oh Dez I'm so sorry. As many have said it was not your fault.Some times things happen that we don't understand,but little Striker knows he has a Mommy that loves him and he waits at the bridge for you. When I saw the picture of them in the cracker box it was just too cute, I even printed a copy of to show my family. I,m praying for you and the girls hug2 hug2 hug2
Posted By: TracieB

Re: I've laid Striker to rest..... - 04/23/07 06:26 PM

cry Oh Dez, I'm so sorry for what you're going through - your loss of Striker and the guilt you're feeling. cry We were out of town all weekend and I'm just now getting here. This was the first post I read, and my heart is breaking right with yours. I fell in love with that little Striker from the minute I saw him. heart He is such a beautiful boy, and a sweetheart from the beginning. Please don't blame yourself. I know how much you love your gliders, and that you would never purposely do anything to harm ANY of them. It was an accident. I'm glad that Sophia and Gypsy (and the babies) are safe. I know all of you must be missing Striker so much. As everyone else has said, please don't be so hard on yourself. I know that's much easier for us to say than it is for you to do, but try. You gave him a wonderful life, two beautiful girl friends, lots of love (and mealies) and in the end a beautiful resting place. He knew how much you loved him - I'm sure of it. Now he's at the Rainbow Bridge jumping and playing with all those that have gone before him.

If there's anything I can do for you, please let me know. You've got my phone numbers if you need or want to talk. Again, I'm so sorry Dez. Give everyone extra kisses for me, and here's some hug2 hug2 hug2 hug2 hug2 hug2 for you.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I've laid Striker to rest..... - 04/23/07 06:37 PM

Dez, I'm so glad it didn't rain enough to stop you from burying Striker yesterday. I hoped the weather would hold out for you. That's the first step in trying to move on some. It'll take time, you know this already I'm sure, but now you can start and he can be in his resting place to have eternal peace.
Thank you again for bringing the girls to me yesterday. I'm sure that was hard considering what had happened in your own life. I want you to know how much I appreciate you still taking the time to do it. It was also great to finally meet you after seeing you on here for months. smile
Anyway, I'm not going to take up Strikers spot here for my own stuff. I just wanted to say thank you for everything you've done when I'm sure it wasn't the easiest time in the world for you to be doing it. *HUGZ* I'm sure everyone's told you this a million times, but I'm going to say it once more...if there's anything I can do, or you just want to talk, you have my numbers (hubby found the home phone while we were gone yesterday too wink ) so you can call anytime. I'm here a lot.
Posted By: Gossamer

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/23/07 06:48 PM

I'm so sorry.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/23/07 08:12 PM

I am so sorry about your Striker. I was at work and reading it and I cant stop crying. I wish I could help you with your pain, I know it has got to be so hard for you. At this time you need to cry and get it all out on how you feel. Then after that is when you can start healing. I am a new mommy and Rikki is everything to me already and I have only had him a very short time. Maybe 2 weeks and we are so close already. I hope your healing time goes fast and you remember the good times with Striker. And please dont blame yourself.. he would not want that at all. take care
mrsshoe
sarah
xoxoxox
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/23/07 09:14 PM

I am very sorry that happen
I bet he had a great life though
My best wishes go out for you and your family/pets
Posted By: jkaradeema

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/24/07 08:19 PM

I felt so terrible when I read this. Striker was the first baby sugar glider Jason and I ever raised and sold. It makes us so sad to know he is gone, he was the sweetest little guy. I can't believe this happened. cry
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/24/07 08:39 PM

Dez, I am SO sorry for your loss, and as everyone else said - accidents do happen. I'm sure your little boy knows you loved him very much, but his curiosity just got the best of him. I remember the picture of him in the cracker box was one of the first I saw on GC and I fell in love, it shows just how endearing our little suggie are. hug2
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I've laid Striker to rest..... - 04/24/07 08:46 PM

cry omg..I am so sorry for your loss!! cry

I was trying so hard not to cry while I read through this post, but when you said your goodbyes and wrapped him in a fleece blankie I was done for. cry

You're a wonderful suggie mom and none of this is your fault. My heart goes out to you during this time of mourning. May you soon find peace within your broken heart. hug2
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I've laid Striker to rest..... - 04/25/07 01:18 AM

You all are so kind! It's been hard...it still is. It's still hard to believe he is gone and I'm still dealing with the what if's and the guilt and having to think of what he had to go through. I think sometimes this would have been so much easier if he would have just passed quietly in his sleep with no pain and no fear. I know I can't go back and change things but god knows I wish I could.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/25/07 01:55 AM

Dez, i know theres nothing i can say to help the way you are feeling. All i can say is that Gypsy and Sophia are LUCKY to have you because you care so much. And so was striker.

I am sooo sorry hun.
Posted By: Usha77

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/25/07 03:08 AM

hug2 hug2 I am so sorry. hug2 hug2 I have to go into the bathroom after anyone else uses it at my house - because I seem to be the only one who understands how important it is to keep the lid closed. I really need to buy the stuff to make ladders. I have become nearly neurotic about checking the lids, and I still find that I forget, too. Striker was a gorgeous boy and he knows his mommy loved him so much.
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/25/07 03:53 AM

we are so sorry for your loss...we too have lost one to drowning (3 inches in a watering can) and know the personal grief.....take comfort in the friends you have here and hope thru your experience, another can be prevented....a huge huge hug to you and yours
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/25/07 04:34 AM

My heart is so broken for you right now. I wish I could think of anything to say to make it hurt a little less. You are all in my prayers. Striker was and always will be one super-stunning and fantastic suggie! And he will always love you. SENDING BIG HUGS!!
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/26/07 06:14 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss, I want to cry when I think of how horrible it must have been for you, and how I would have felt to find one of my babies like that. But please remember that it really was an accident, and not your fault. Bad things sometimes happen to very good people, it's horrible, and I hate it, but life can sometimes be very unfair. I'm so sorry. cry
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry....... - 04/26/07 07:37 AM

I'm so sorry to hear about Striker. He was a beautiful little boy and I know for a fact that the time he spent with you was the best a glider could have asked for. You gave him a wonderful, loving family, and even if it was short, his life was obviously blessed. So many gliders out there live long, unhappy lives with people that don't know how to care for them, but you obviously did everything right by him. I'm positive Striker was so happy with you. I'm so sorry you're having to go thorugh this. You're in my thoughts and prayers : (
Posted By: dranger1108

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/26/07 01:30 PM

Originally Posted By: suggie_slayer
If i had to see you everyday I'd do it too help.

<3



Is this suppose to be a joke? dunno
Posted By: mattysmom

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/26/07 02:11 PM

It's not a very good one "suggie-slayer."
Posted By: Usha77

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/26/07 02:42 PM

Isn't that called a "troll" on the internet now? Or something like that? Someone (with too much time on their hands and a distinct lack of respect and maturity) who just comes into a forum and writes something stupid to get people mad?
Posted By: KarenE

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/26/07 04:07 PM

We are a tight knit caring family here at GC. That was that member's first and last post.

So sorry. Thanks, Eddie.
Posted By: Usha77

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/26/07 04:10 PM

Thanks, Eddie & Karen & all the rest of you wonderful admin! What would we do without you guys? hug2
Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/26/07 04:14 PM

I'm sure a lot of others besides me notified and I am so happy to be a part of a place like this that cares so much about people and their beloved gliders. Thank you!! thanks
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Posted By: dranger1108

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/26/07 04:14 PM

Originally Posted By: KarenE
We are a tight knit caring family here at GC. That was that member's first and last post.

So sorry. Thanks, Eddie.


that's so good to hear! mlove That's why I love glider central, everyone is so kind to each other. I've been on other message boards and there is so much drama and hurtful stuff going on by internet trolls... It makes glider central feel like a bit of a safe haven on the internet!
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Posted By: Anonymous

Re: I killed Striker. Dear God I'm so sorry........ - 04/27/07 12:55 AM

i cant see anything through my tears so if i nake niestajes you will jnow whu. i am so sotty for you and i cant stop cryibg for kuttke Striker. I wisj there was something we humans couls do to birng our beloves lirrlw pets back... I am soo sorry for you... Those pidtures were avsolurely lovely and this is really not your fault so dont beat yourself up fir it... I am so sotty...


EDIT: Okay, I have wiped my tears so I can see enough to make a translation:
I can't see anything through my tears so if I make mistakes you will know why. I am so sorry for you and I can't stop crying for little Striker. I wish there was something we humans could do to bring our beloved little pets back... I am soo sorry for you... Those pictures were absolutely lovely and this is really not your fault so don't beat yourself up for it... I am so sorry...

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