3 weeks ago I had triplets born to a pair who had rejected their first joeys. I decided after the first two that were rejected that some parents just aren't ready and I would let them try one more time. We landed with 3 beautiful joeys. Faith, Serenity and Trust. Day after the joeys detached I found Faith on the bottom of the cage less than 5 mins later she passed in my hands. The parents were still being very attentive to the other two and triplets have high chances for 1 to be rejected so I left the other two with mom and dad. I fed everyone dinner that night and 20 mins later went back into the room to pull the other two joeys for weights and I found Serenity on the top of the pouch with her mother either trying to push or pull her, I really couldn't tell 100% which. I ran over to check on her and she was cold to the touch my heart fell into my stomach I immediately pushed Serenity into my bra and opened the pouch for Trust.
I looked into the pouch and the fabric on the inside of the pouch was grey and the light was shadowed so I couldn't see straight in. I saw a shape and while I couldn't see clearly I knew what was in there. Trust had been cannibalized. I closed the pouch I didn't need to see anymore and removed the pouch from the cage. I walked into my kitchen with Serenity and proceeded to have a full mental breakdown. I called my friend Teresa told her what happened and I needed help. I was concerned about my ability to take care of Serenity until I calmed myself down, and the pain felt like it would go on for years. I managed to collect myself that night and face this sweet baby, sister to my sweet (lol almost famous now) Brett. I had to snap out of it and attend to Serenity. Three weeks of caring for her she was gaining weight growing fur everywhere and doing so well. And as fast as it took for her family to be ripped apart she took a turn for the worst. I stayed up with her all night last night pushing fluids. I went to the vets office this morning did a few quick tests to make sure it wasn't anything bacterial or anything else and I took her home. Quickly after that she started having convulsions to what I would call "ticks". I didn't want to give up on her but I knew what we were facing at that point, and I quickly said a prayer to God that if it was her time to take her quickly and not make her suffer. As she got worse thru the day I could see it. I put her back in my bra despite sweating thru it and I held her to my heart. I told her I loved her, and around 10:30 tonight I felt her take her last bit of air into her lungs and pass.
I haven't shared the fate of any of the three on this board til now. So this is a post not just for Serenity but her brother and sister. Its a post to warn people against jumping into breeding without thinking it out. I've been breeding for 2 years now and never had a rejection or death til this January. I feed a good diet my gliders have the best of everything and this still happened.
My heart is heavy and I feel like a failure.
I love you my three. You were all so special, to precious and beautiful for this world and I didn't deserve you.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen.
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Lauren, I don't know you, but I've been praying very hard for you and your little ones. It's easy to feel the love you have for all your babies. And for the past several months it's just been one joey after another. I can't imagine how emotionally exhausted you must be and I just fee so much saddness by all you've been through. My heart sank when you closed the triplets thread. I just wanted to reach out to you ~ but knew you needed space, and it was none of my business. I know it's hard when you've lost as much, but don't feel like a failure. Sometimes we just have to accept, that no matter what the extreme, some situations we just have no control over the final outcome.
Here's a corny one for ya. But one that I keep coming back to time and again in my life. "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger." Doesn't make it any easier, or justify in any way, but later in life we are stonger for all the hard times we have endured.
(((Hugs))) to you for coming to speak what is so hard to say. And hoping you have many a hand to hold right now.
Lauren - I am so sorry for your loss and know the heartbreak you are feeling right now......I hope there is someone who can give you a hug and hold you if you need it......know that you and your little ones are in our prayers
Re: The Serenity Prayer
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Lauren I am so sorry! I hadn't heard from you in a while so I sent that PM and now I know why you didn't respond. I wish there was something I could say to help you feel better. It's so hard to understand why things happen and we aren't supposed to have more on our plate than we can handle, but darnit! My plate is overflowing most of the time! I know you feel the same right now. I will keep you in my thoughts & prayers. You know time heals, but it's so hard to get past this. Please take care of yourself. There are people around that need you!
Lauren, My thoughts and prayers are with you. I am deeply sorry for your losses, and wished that there was a way to take away the pain and heartbreak that your going through. I'm glad you had Teresa there to help. Please know that regardless of how far away one is from those who care are only a phone call away, while close at heart.
Your little ones will always shine with the blessing of your love.
Please accept my condolences on the loss of the triplets. Even though there were only here for a short time, they touch our lives so much.
Glide Free little ones.
Kimberley Feathers-Sweetie, Mister Peanut & Big Mack Fur-Guinan, Mr. Spock, T'Mir, Cho, Toothless, Maverick & Maharet T'Pol, Elizabeth & Curzon TY, TJ, Light Fury, Madison & T'Pring Forever in my heart, Gizmo, Tucker, Khayman and the rest of my babies over the
I cant say how sorry i am for your losses. You have had it very rough the couple months. Please know the joeys that Serenity knew she was loved and died in your warm loving hands. Cal me if you need to talk.
Lauren, I am so sorry I just lost my hand-raised little Mambo on Friday night, so I know the heartache you are feeling. It is amazing how quickly these tiny little ones can grab onto our hearts Know that you are not alone and that I am grieving with you
Lauren, I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your beloved triplets please know that you are in our prays during this hard time (hugs)
Dani Marshall(816)377-4443 Slave to Patrick my Human Son And in service too Queen Jem Drop & King Stripes, New Prince Cristal looking for his Princess/Queen In Memory too Addie,Igor,Heangel,Bashful,Doubledip,Sparky,Misty, King Badger, Badger Jr.,Queen Seabee, Princess Willow.
i am soo sorry for your loss lauren. there is nothing worse then losing your joeys, i lost my twin boys about 3 wees ago, and one of them to cannibalizism. thats was the worst feeling. my prayers are with you and your babies!
Jessee slave to: Ender & Valentine and 1 non-fuzzy kid Carleigh
I am SOOOOOO happy to finally be able to have my gliders back home with me! I have missed my babies soo much <3
Re: The Serenity Prayer
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